Only I tread on me

Hi guys its Erin, people have started to call me Ari now because I dont really like my given name, people make fun of me for it because it can also be a boys name spelled Aaron. Recently, alot of high schoolers have been passing away and killing themselves... These times, especially high school are really rough, but we have to be strong. When you go into a negative state, do anything you can to stay happy, use your coping skills(go on a run, bike, shop, talk to friends, write, draw, anything). You might not feel like there's too many things you can do, but there is ALOT. The negativity will make you feel like there's no hope left, there is hope left! Just because you're going through a mid-life crisis doesn't mean it's over. You have so much more of a life to live, so many things you can do, you can become. You might not think you have a future or anything but I promise you, you do- we all do. We were born to become who we are, we were born to create a better future for the world, a better future for you. It doesn't matter what other people think of you, be you. You will make mistakes, you're human. In order to move on you must learn from those mistakes and listen. Do whatever you think is best for yourself and the world. Before ever thinking about yourself, think about others... Who are you doing this for? What are you doing this for? You might not think you're enough, you are. You are enough for your mother to work, to hurt, to get you out of her body. Dont let that hurt be for nothing. Let your future be your mothers pay. Do what's in your heart, do something to make yourself proud, to make your loved ones proud, but first you must be you, in order to become you.Don't let anyone, anything stop you. We all were made different for a reason, we all make a difference to this world in our own little different way. You are not as little as you think, you are one out of almost 8 billion, but you are still human. Let them judge you, let them look, be you, dont follow, dont be someonelse, be who you were born to be. Like I say

"Weird is the new and improved normal"

Be whoever, whatever you what... You dont have to name yourself,

You have your own name,

and that's what we all should be called,

by the name we were given, by our mothers who worked so hard to make us. Im not trying to force you, Im not trying to guilt you.

I need the world to realize, we all hurt, yet we tread, in order to get to our life goal we need to keep on treading in order to get to the light,

to realize who we are.

Stay safe Love you all,

your sister Ari